Sleepless Night…Day One
When I left I never thought it would be the desert
Bleak was life without your presence
I can’t go back to that place
Packed my things, ready to go back all night I contemplate
To face exactly what? Loneliness that no one else seems to fill
A broken heart that even G-d can’t heal
So I’m here, unsatisfied, weak, and foolish as can be
Heart and mind bitter enemies
The alternative is what? MORE Misery?!
If G-d would just help me to think of you in a negative way
For some reason, I can see only in grays
So rolling over and loving you any less than I do today
Just doesn’t seems to be an unconscionable convey
You Fears, I wish can grab a hold, keep me so snug and safe
My fears is that you will say goodbye keeps me here today
There’s not much more I can do or say
I’ve given it all, love you to a fault
My heart has taken on a brutal assault
But I’m still here; I can’t go back to that desert
Wilderness of misery, I have to divert
No promises that I will not ask for satisfaction still
The pursuit of happiness within doesn’t seems fulfilled
Patience and hope can be my assets only time will tell
Unsatisfied with him but miserable without him
Isn’t love GRAND!!!
Nov 2005-now…
Jim by Billie Holiday
Jim doesn’t ever bring me pretty flowers
Jim never tries to cheer my lonely hours
Don’t know why I’m so crazy for Jim
Jim never tells me I’m his heart’s desire
I never seem to set his love afire
Gone are the years I’ve wasted on him
Sometimes when I get feeling’ low
I say let’s call it quits
Then I hang on and let him go breaking’ my heart in bits
Someday I know that Jim will up and leave me
But even if he does you can believe me
I’ll go on carrying the torch for Jim
I’ll go on loving’ my Jim