Yesterday, while I stood staring at the window, I was alone……thinking…..about him
The new year was going to bring hope…..maybe even a new love….him
When I began this journey who knew that it would deliver me here….. Confused…
The center of sorrow…..
The middle of pain….
And The heart of my grief….
The enemy wants me to think this is so…
I came to the split second realization of the betrayal that surrounded me….
The trick of the enemy….
But so upset I can’t pray…
But as I remembered how my spirit fled from the violence that molested my physical shell…. Now that’s betrayal … not this…
Suspended in time, a silent witness to the events now. The greatest pain of watching tragedy
As if…..
As if…
Experencie hasn’t taught me better
Scattered dreams,
empty hope,
lost love
I’m NO stranger to it alll anymore
Sorrow overcomes my calm
As I knowledge my wrong doings
Confusion blurs my surroundings
I don’t know why
And He wont give me a clue
But despite how I feel I give it all to You……
so I come to You in prayer……
Amen.
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June 8, 2007 at 5:06 am
Why can I relate to everything you have written. It maybe cuz your good (which yu are) or because as you say Kim, we maybe kindred spirit x
June 8, 2007 at 9:45 am
Thanks phosphorescence for the comment. I’m so glad you can relate. This is one of those poems that can throw people off.
June 8, 2007 at 12:31 pm
This was a different, yet refreshing poem from you. It is so raw I was vividly able to experience the turmoil as it was written, along with the narrator. Very good pink. kim
June 8, 2007 at 8:42 pm
Pink….pink…pink…this was good. The pauses are your thoughts –completely concretely illusrated…wow…yes. This was good. Perfect title. I felt it.
June 8, 2007 at 9:25 pm
Thank you so much kim, it is different for me..But you know I have to stay raw, unpolished…that’s just me..(smiling)
Thank you alison..I’m glad my pause, thoughts were clear, yet confusion stayed with every word…I’m happy you got it, but I knew you guys would
June 13, 2007 at 6:37 pm
Alone, there is no tougher position in this world. No more difficult place to be. It is there, though, you learn most about yourself. There is a path you must traverse to be where ever it is that you are going. What lessons are along the path. What are we WILLING to learn. Do we even know when we’ve learned it? Perhaps not until the right one comes along…
beautiful emotions you share.
June 13, 2007 at 6:48 pm
Thanks ozy for the comment. I agree… Alone is hard but so necessary. The alone time I last experienced taught me patience. I’m no pro at being still and waiting but I certainly needed to develop MORE patience when it came to others. While going thru that time it was hard, didnt know why i had to travel that road. But hindsight is 20/20. Thanks for stopping by, don’t be a stranger..
June 18, 2007 at 11:21 pm
i really like the push and pull to this piece. it’s similar to how we live…a sort of pushing and pulling. waiting and acting. struggle.. inward and outside of us. nice work.
side note. patience is hard. how do u manage? do you ever push thru…or just wait? when should we push?
June 19, 2007 at 1:08 am
Beautiful really. Blurred confusion, it’s something I know a thing or two about.
June 19, 2007 at 7:26 am
Thank you 3:47pm and hismuse for your comments. Sorry 3:47pm I don’t have the answers for your questions, if I did I wouldn’t be this broke…
June 20, 2007 at 7:58 pm
haha…i understand.