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Sleepless Night…Day One

 

When I left I never thought it would be the desert

Bleak was life without your presence

I can’t go back to that place

Packed my things, ready to go back all night I contemplate

To face exactly what? Loneliness that no one else seems to fill

A broken heart that  even G-d can’t heal

So I’m here, unsatisfied, weak, and foolish as can be

Heart and mind bitter enemies

The alternative is what? MORE Misery?!

If G-d would just help me to think of you in a negative way

For some reason, I can see only in grays

So rolling over and loving you any less than I do today

Just doesn’t seems to be an unconscionable convey

You Fears, I wish can grab a hold, keep me so snug and safe

My fears is that you will say goodbye keeps me here today

There’s not much more I can do or say

I’ve given it all, love you to a fault

My heart has taken on a brutal assault

But I’m still here; I can’t go back to that desert

Wilderness of misery, I have to divert

No promises that I will not ask for satisfaction still

The pursuit of happiness within doesn’t seems fulfilled

Patience and hope can be my assets only time will tell

 

 

 

Unsatisfied with him but miserable without him

Isn’t love GRAND!!!

Nov 2005-now…

 

Jim by Billie Holiday

 

Jim doesn’t ever bring me pretty flowers

Jim never tries to cheer my lonely hours
Don’t know why I’m so crazy for Jim

Jim never tells me I’m his heart’s desire
I never seem to set his love afire
Gone are the years I’ve wasted on him
Sometimes when I get feeling’ low
I say let’s call it quits
Then I hang on and let him go breaking’ my heart in bits

Someday I know that Jim will up and leave me
But even if he does you can believe me
I’ll go on carrying the torch for Jim

I’ll go on loving’ my Jim

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Meet me half way

Where paradise exist

But I can’t see you over the horizon

So, I do insist ……

 

Meet me half way

Where life together originates

Where destiny meets it’s fate

Waiting for a response to what I’ve initiate

So, don’t hesitate….

 

Meet me half way

I know it’s a big request

But it’s no bigger than what I’ll invest

So you can sit for a second to assess

But ,don’t digress….

 

Meet me halfway

Don’t make me carry all the weight

G-d didn’t make me to have such a fate

Get up & come close before it’s too late

Just meet me halfway…..

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Laid to rest, deck out in my Sunday’s best

I better not spot you in the pews, making a big to do

You hurt me while I was here, don’t you f*&king shed a tear

Be proud no regret what you’ve done and what I’ve become

I’ll be waiting for you in Hell,

                     cause I cussed your presence as my final farewell

                                           Hoping that a million, no billion maggots

                                                        Eat your eyes that cry, you f&*king faggot

Making it’s way to your brain until you collapse and died

               Then consume the flesh that covered the evil that tried to hide

Itself as a person to love

Copyright © 2000

(orginally posted 12/14/07 )

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I keep my eyes close tightly, trying hard not to lose the image of you

Last night, you left me insatiable, this erotic blue movie in my head

Please baby don’t take that wrong, you always take me to my peak

 Just can’t get enough of you, your loving, but know you keep me well feed

As I slip a finger to part the lips of my wetness, the bright pink place

I try hard not to forget how good you look, the expression you had on your face

When you first enter me, every time with your first slide, can’t help but let out a sigh of relief

But I want to rewind the events in my mind, how you snatch it like a thief

I was sound asleep, waking up to your tongue gently massaging my clit

Not letting up until I came, mouth soak with my juices, until I finally submit

Put up a good fight but no match for your grasp and I’d have it no other way

Wanted to return the favor, experience this warmth, but you said today was my day

Now my own fingers are slippery, so I add a second one to my hungry yummm

Silky texture fingers gliding needing more fiction, cause your feel is so hmmm

Thought to call you home from work for more but I remember my secret weapon

It’s no match to your kiss, your touch, your smell but it’ll do when you’re gone

As it slides in one smooth motion, I can’t help but arch my back and gasp

The muscles that surrounds it contracts, can’t help but hold it with a tight grasp

I remember your nose twitched and whispers of how much you like how that feels

Just the thought of pleasing you makes me clinch once more and it feels unreal

As I feel myself get close to that point where you love looking into my eyes

You enter the room to my surprise, at first I’m a little embarrassed that I’m found

Toy on full blast, mouth half-open, leg spread and fingers on my mound

You beg me not to stop, baby finish let me see you make it purr for me

I hesitate at first feeling funny but you look so turn on, so I agree

As I return to thoughts of you last night, lost in passion of the moment, never noticed

You approach so close for a better view, couldn’t help but call out for you

Feeling plastic slip out to be filled with real, warm, strong, black, the Wooo

I whisper in your ear, damn baby, this feeling was so long over due

We began to move and sway to a rhyme, in harmony, our own special groove

I came twice by just thinking about you, so how intense will the real thing be

I can feel you grow stronger, a wave of pleasure starts to take over me

Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, I feel so free

Trying to catch my breath, I feel that you too have reached your peak with me

How nice to be so in sync? You kiss my lips. You hold me so tight.

Not wanting to break free but we do, now we have something to look forward to tonight.

Copyright © 2006

(orginally posted 12/12/06)

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If I can just gain strength…but I’m so tired…

Yearning for masculine muscular arms in which to retire…

Stopping to rest at the side of the road, looking around for relief…

Since you’ve been gone, my life has been without any peace…

I turned to Him in which you say your strength lies…

Hoping that He too will give me some solace, help this pain subside…

I’m just not like the others, I color outside the lines..

So when I go through something, I have to keep it confined…

So I stay going down this road not sure where it leads…

Hoping that I didn’t turn, in all the confusion but I must proceed…

I get many offers of help, looking deep into eyes that maybe full of deceit…

I haven’t found no man’s eye quite like yours, so back into my shell I retreat…

The only man that never let me down, to find one like you feels despairing…

Sit here and cry won’t change things, so up on my feet for more preparing…

Babies sole stability to spring broad into their adulthood arrival…

I can’t rest to long, so what my heartaches, I have to think of their survival…

I guess I stop as long as I did to let you know I miss you…

Finding strength in you, trying not to let my vision become askew…

Cause somehow dad you handle this all alone, with strength, love and grace…

Just thinking of the smile on your face, I didn’t see any worries, not a trace…

I’m not as strong as you because after 3 years and I still can’t find that place…

I just wish at the end of this long, hard race, if I stay on pace…

One of my rewards is finding comfort in your warm embrace…

Miss you Daddy!!!

Copyright © 2006 P.P. Vol 1

(orginally posted 12/11/06)